June 7, 2012

Freedom Isn't Free

We live in a country where all men are equal so they have it written down, but our society has changed so much that we filled a world in hate and disgust. This is me I am who I am and I dont need to change for anyone. Haters are always going to talk find the flaws to point out and souly look for the bad in your life. Well continue to talk you keep me motivated to continue working harder. I just recently discovered a friendship of eight years was fake. It opened my eyes to all the drama I ever had. Im not perfect nor do I intend to be Im filled with flaws mistakes and fuck ups but thats life and I will never learn if I dont fall down every now and then. Never call someone a hypocrite if you can't turn around and admit you are one too. Because that right there proves you are one. Im tired of being put down and people saying they are better than me. Good for you, I couldnt be any happier that you have reached a point in your life that you have met sucess. But you have no reason to drag me down on my journey to reach that point too. I am a young mom. Im no where near perfect, I still search for the equal balance of having a social life as well as my duties as a mom. But you have nerve to sit there and say im a shit mom because every now and then I get a break to have some quality ME time. Just because you stay at home all day and post a million pictures to your facebooks doesn't make you mom of the year. Moms work go to school go out with friends work out, have drinks, and still continue to live there lives as they did before children its just all time managed now. I laugh at those who judge me. If you dont like me, and the things i do in life annoy you or have an impact on your life then if your so mature remove me. Its simple. I do not need to take a hint that im upsetting you. The first trait to being "better" than me is minding your own business and go about your own life. You do not live it, nor do you deal with the consequences of my actions. I DO! there for if anyone is to get frustrated or annoyed with how i live my life is ME! Friends are there support not judge and understand. give you your space when needed and lend a helping hand not dictate your every move, judge who you choose to talk too, or be friends with, not point out every flaw or bitch and complain about what your doing. I can admit all that i have done wrong no matter how hard it is, when brought up i can honestly and shamfuly tell you my flaws and mistakes but no friend should ever question you or judge you by it. Yes I do seek male attention, for not having my dad mostly in my life and having the run around with relationships I would like to have a relationship but its not your place to judge how i go about doing it. again a good friend would just give you kind advice and let you make your own mistakes. I get that friends try to protect you but there is a limit of when you cross the line. Im human I do several things thousands of other people do therefor im not alone. But I do know I have a big heart, I accept all, and get to know before I "judge" and if i disagree with that person so be it. I have grown up enough to know that i just need to walk away and mind my own. Yes I was a teen mom, I did live at my moms, but i had a husband who supported us, i dropped outta school to be a good wife and mom i did what any other girl at my age thought was right and it was right at the moment. Im now attending college and searching for a job. I have no bills a roof over my head and can fend for myself. How are you any better than me? we all struggle we all have our fall outs but if you think for one second that your materialistic lives make you better than me because you have the high value in cash then you are sadly mistaken. I have love, support, and dignity. Im not single minded to the world and though i have my opinions they are mine to have and if you disagree thats YOUR opinion doesn't make either one of us right or wrong. We created the world we live in one person thought of how this country should be ran the rules and regultions of it are all based on opinions and what they think is best for the moment. Together we fall, Together we grow strong, and no one ever truly knows what is best right or wrong. there are just guidlines as to how they think we should go about doing it. But were made unique and put together to make a diversed culture of several different ways to live life and do things. Gay straight bi, teen mom,  whatever your ignorant to think that we all need to live a life how one person thinks we should live. If you dont wanna be dictated, judged, or live the way someone else wants you to live why do you expect anyone else to souly be what you want them to be? I wont and I refuse to and if you dont like it then Im sorry your just not ment to be a person apart of my life. I am who I am and I will continue to do what i feel is best and if its wrong to you then pay no mind, continue to keep on the sucessful path you feel is best for you. But I am not weak i will voice my opinion and think about your actions before you call someone out point there flaws out or have something negative to say. because if its not what you want someone to do to you then you have no place to do it to someone else.