Am I really?

Dont you just love to hear all about your life in third person? An everyone believes the person telling your story because they live your life? Right? Wrong. Am I really that awful crazy phyco because i simply want whats best for my girls and dont know which way to turn? Am i really that crazy because i had to ask someone who i thought was my best friend to fix my marriage? Am I really that phyco because im an over protective mom looking out for the greater good of my childrens life in that very moment? Yes. Then im the shittiest person ever walking this planet right now. Were human everyone fucks up ALOT! and dont say you dont cause you do. Were human we have thoughts feelings emotions && opinions. But we always tend to focus on the bad in people. Its our natural deffense to choose sides talk down among people. Hold grudges for pointless time periods. And even continueously remind ourselves what that person did wrong to have a reason to keep disliking them. The minute a person messes up we never open up to hope that they just might change. We never re-think of the good memories and laugh we had with people to remind ourselves what made us love and care about them in the first place. Sure were not going to like everyone but there is no need for rude cruel haterid towards people. If its one thing we all do is the minute someone dislikes a person we have an auto button to disliking them too without even knowing whats wrong. Sure we never mean to burn bridges hurt feelings break hearts or even screw up, but this is life these things happen. But a good person would always find the positive in a situation. It took a lot of of me to try to accept what im phasing in life it takes everything outta me to be nice and play fair but what good am i doing fighting back? what am i showing by being hateful back? nothing. that i simply havn't changed or grown up. This is my life my story if you do not like me then fine but there is no need to bad talk me because there is some little thing about me you dont like. I have been judged spit up chewed out and broken. I still stand here as strong as a soldier. I hate holding grudges i hate disliking people even if they did me wrong thats not who i am. And if you  allow the negative affect your judgement on me then your an ignorant person. We have auto button to look straight for the bad before we think of good. We could list 10 bad things right off the bat before we could ever say five nice things. Im awful and terrible and crazy because for my girls sake i wanna raise them to tell them i tried. Im phycho because i tried to put up a fight to take back what was mine. When angry we always say bad things we always over axadurate situations for people to favor our sides. I dont need that people like me for me not because of what i make up. life has natural drama and thats enough for me anything over the top of that is un needed. and though i may not be happy and though i may be "the bad guy" at least i come out saying that i faced it head on without lying and smooshing to make myself look like the better person. I have flaws several they are what keep me learning on how to grow up and when the time comes things will fall into place and for all the right reasons. I just want people to know that im not what is being said. Im hurt and upset and thats a big difference. so still think im awful and whatever else thats on you. I just know that i want my girls to have the family they deserve the ones who created them because its no ones place or responsibility to raise them but us. and if we can't come together to be civil talk and attempt to fix things then i would say we were ignorant for allowing hate get && anger get the best of us. stop judging me from negative and see me from a positive you will realize im a pretty good person.